'The Wheels' day!

((assalamualaikum&good night everyone))

harini punya activity agak mencabar. setelah berminggu minggu kebuntuan taktahu apa nak buat. asyik pergi rumah azielah aje kerja aku sehari hari lepas dah tak bekerja ni haha. so we've decided to do something productive which is......main rollerblade. and sebenarnya tak pandai lansung main. me&rais are the newbies, sebab tak pernah main. and sgt sgt sgt teruk pun kitorang berusaha untuk pandai hahaha ((but rais is the worst, me not)) so jelous bila tgk mustaqim&din can gracefully swing their rollerblade kesana kemari. they can even do some tricks ahhhhhh stress bila tak pandai main. secara jujurnya aku sangat banyak jatuh. banyak pattern aku jatuh ckp je nak apa tergolek, terguling, terduduk, tersadung, terbalik semua complete. mmg rasa nak give up sbb sakit sangat time jatuh but mus selalu cakap "no pain no gain" tiap kali tolong aku bangun balik ahahaha. sebenarnya in plans nak kumpul satu kelas tapi semuanya sibuk bekerja mendapatkan sesuap nasi, so yang berenam ni jelah yang berjaya meloloskan diri&meminta cuti dari bekerja untuk main bendalah ni. i appreciate that, exactly. and we also hd some pictures. sikit je sbb masing masing takut nak pegang phone sbb takut hjatuh&pecah haha sbb semua tak stable kan. tapi cukup lah sebagai kenangan :)

 muka macam pro

 ni mata ala ala storm sikit tapi more to scary haha. flashlight error

and this was after had some bruises on legs&hands. we were having fun, we did. 

puas sgt hati sbb for the first time sarung rollerblade tu. eh no, sarung dah pernah tapi tak pernah berdiri pun bila pakai. i cant even stand pun dulu time sarung! tapi harini bukan setakat berdiri, tapi boleh bergerak. dan bergerak laju wuhu! mmg susah nak percaya tapi percayalah sbb ianya benar benar berlaku hahahahaha. paling happy sbb time spent well with lovely ppl around me :) hopefully kalau gather lagi sekali lagi ramai yang dapat join amin. cz i miss civil3's laughters. and i miss all of them so bad.

Goodmorning everyone!

so ive decided to stick with this blog again haha. goodmorning. good 22nd morning. have a bliss. may God bless :)

2013, is tough

suprised, tht im blogging again. its january. january of 2014. yea its late but, hello new year :)

im glad tht it is 2014 now. 2013 was really a big obstacle for me tho. losing someone like peng, having new partner and losing him again, its enough for me to be sad. banyak benda yang aku lalu, sangat sangat sangat banyak. kalau nak cerita pun mcm tak berbaloi sbb tak cukup satu page maybe hahaha.

but wht ive learnt is, to appreciate things. benda yang kita ada sekarang, tak mustahil esok akan hilang. benda yang kita tak jaga elok elok sekarang, tak mustahil akan pergi esok harinya. macam peng. a really good friend. a close one. tapi since bila kitorang dah jarang tegur, we hd crisis. but i always wanted to talk to him. seeing he smiles pun dah okay dah. bumped into him tapi tak bertegur sapa, sangat sangat sangat sakit bila nak ingat balik. sangat sangat sangat sakit bila fikir yang i never get tht chances anymore. he's gone for good. and i hope he's doing fine down there, accompanied by our doa and alfatihah. peng i really missed you. we missed you.

i remember, the day peng meninggal time tu aku nak pergi rumah aten. time tu tgh naik ktm. i wore a blue blouse and grey bawal. so clear. masa dapat call from aten tu aku dekat stesen ktm sg buloh. and aten called, and bgtau "wey kau tau tak pasal peng? dia meninggal!" so clear. i remember everything. lepastu my tears burst out, yet i still smiling and crying and smiling rolling in the same time. rasa mcm takde arah sangat time tu. rasa mcm lemah sgt untuk bergerak keluar dari ktm tu walaupun time tu sgt besar peluang utk lari pergi hospital sg buloh. rasa mcm taktau nak buat apa. rasa buntu. and terus call syuk. syuk is the first person i called lepas call umi peng mintak pengesahan. no i didnt make the call, asiela did. sbb aku tak kuat nak dengar suara mak dia menangis. i promised something to her a week bfore peng died. i promised to her to take care of peng, to see him everyday at school and to make sure tht he is fine. i promised, and tak sampai seminggu pun janji tu aku tunaikan. and aku rasa mcm aku yg tak jaga peng. aku yg tak pesan kat dia suruh bawak motor elok elok. aku yg tak pesan kat dia jgn bawak motor laju laju. aku rasa semua tu salah aku. i texted him, and got no replies and 5minutes after tht lah aten call aku cakap dia dah meninggal ya Allah, sedihnya aku rasa time tu. kalau lah pagi pagi lg dah text dia, kalaulah sempat pagi tu call dia. tapi takdir Allah kita kena terima dengan hati yang terbuka. ada hikmah semua tu terjadi and ada hikmah kenapa peng dipilih. Allah loves him more than us, more than me, more than his family. apa yang kita boleh buat sekarang ni hanyalah mendoakan dia. and ditakdirkan pulak malam tu aku start seminar dekat MC. got no chance nak pergi lawat. but im happy sbb time tu ramai sangat kawan kawan yg datang. peng, diorang dtg nak tgk you tau. ramai iring you. ramai sayang you. 

lepas peng meninggal, kerap sangat aku menangis. i never cry so hard before, but i did for him. siapa tak sedih. ini bukan pergi saja, ni pergi tak kembali. orang yang rapat dengan kita. yang selalu concern and tanya "you okay tak ni?" whenever i got problems. orang yg selalu calm me down whenever i got mad. he's gone for good. selalu je kalau teringat dia, tulis dalam diari yang dia bg for my birthday. dalam tu ada tulisan dia, lukisan dia, and menangis lagi.

"and i hope to see your smile in the future even tht time i already gone from this world"

he wrote that. 

we will meet, peng. we will meet someday. in a different atmosphere, different world, but hopefully in a good way. in the way that ill meet you with a smile on my face. in the way tht ill meet you and say hi i miss you. someday ill return to Him, just like you. just like my uncle and grandfathers. just like the others. just wait a lil bit more, we will be with you down there. next month kalau ada masa, kalau takde aral melintang, aku nak pergi lawat kubur arwah. aku nak jumpa mak dia. aku nak mintak maaf sbb tak jaga dia walau aku tau semua ni bukan salah aku but i feel bad. so the things here, appreciate things we had before we lose them.

it has been 4months peng meninggal, but still tbh peng, you are still in my heart&in everyone's heart. 

Arwah Muhamad Arif Hanif Bin Ahmad Razif
Alfatihah.....

I miss all these things like srsly!

Taktau nak cakap macam mana taktau nak mulakan dengan apa, i just miss netball so so so much!

Sorry, assalamualaikum readers.

*breathe in* *breathe out* i miss netball. That's it. Sebulan kot training sama2 dengan diorang. Everyday every evening mengahadap muka diorang jugak. Seluar track koyak sana sini jatuh atas tar time training. Ambik gambar macam gila time dalam dewan. Srsly, i cant get it off my mind. At all. This is the best netball team ive ever had *salute*

So bila rindu kita buat apa? Tengok gambar, gather lagi lagi lagi? Haha nak cakap nya kami ni gian sangat nak bernetball kembali, ditubuhkan nya kem netball and budak2 KV lah yang jadi mangsa. Semua ni idea cikgu Kapali. So dapatlah turun padang train budak2 and main sekali woh sewonok sewonok ^^ 

Esok pegi sekolah nak jumpa dakdak netball ni so i cant wait for it sampai tak boleh nak tidur! Hahha. Meh kita kongsi gambar sikit :)

Haha ini fav aku dengan aten xD

Adibah&Yasmine were so gedik LOL

Di atas adalah gambar time training. Heh sikit je sebab time training punya gambar seksi. Masa lawan mssd lagi seksi so tak boleh nak upload lah hahaha. The next is KAT :)

First day :

 firs seven players

 win against KV Shah Alam

Berjaya melayakkan diri ke semi :3

Second day :

w Teknik Setapak

w the winner, Teknik KL

dapat medal x)

We won the third place alhamdulillah for KAT which is i am so happy sebab dapat tebus balik kekalahan last year. Wuhu! \^^/

Last but not least,

this is me

and this is me shooting hahaha

Goodbye :)

Muiz ohoho

Yesterday ada tusyen macam biasa lah tusyen fizik and chemistry dekat MC. Then time gap from 7.30 to 9 tu kitorang (me bad and thiban) pergi WW. Then jumpa lah si abang muiz ni kat sana ohoho. Jumpa2 tu sumpah terkejut sebab dia nampak sangaaaaaaaaat kurus ._. dah la jumpa je aku terus cakap lapar ish apa benda lah haha. Then pusing pusing tu dia kata nak makan kat Manhattan Fish Market tu so i accompany him lah sbb takde solero nak makan and tak rasa lapar pun lagi hahah lagi satu sebab nya duit tak ada sadlife betul purse tertinggal *facedown* sooo sepanjang lepak kat situ asyik boooorak je manjang. Borak ketawa borak ketawa well da setahun tak jumpa kan. Jumpa pun setahun sekali. Padahal kitorang ni dekat bebeno nya hah semenjak dia dah di-transferkan masuk UIA Gombak which is where i live rn. Tapi takde lah pulak aku nak pegi jalan tengok dia kat mahallah tu hah aku kan sekolah sampai pukul 5 -.-t so this is the time lah nak bertanya khabar pun kan. Bercerita pasal apa yang berlaku sepanjang setahun tak jumpa tu. Best borak dengan muiz ni sebab dia suka ketawa hahahahahahhaha macam aku. Then dah nak start tusyen tu dia folo sampai MC acah2 je kata nak tengok mana tempat aku tusyen nak jadi partimer kat situ lol. Apa apa pun thanks muiz sebab jumpa diba malam tadi. Semoga jumpa lagi :)

Muiz is having his Dory x3